Will the Real Me Stand Up?

I just read Maia Berens blog titled "A Part of Me" http://allaboutlifecoaching.com.

It's true, you know. We are all many selves. In fact, I'd be suspicious of someone who claims they aren't.

Which part of this chameleon personality is the real me? The artist? The Gypsy? The musician? The writer? The me who mopes around the house begrudgingly doing all the dirty work? The me who meets friends up the street for a coffee and laughs for no reason at all?

They're all me. Even the "bad" bits. The judgemental me is a bit hard to take. I try to sit on that one when it appears. Angry me hardly ever surfaces, but the resentful one can sneak up on the rest of me if I don't watch it. And, while we're at it, the childish me is always a small step away from pouting when things don't go my way. By far the hardest me to take is the weak me—the one who is taken for granted, stepped on, made to feel inadequate, and allows all this to happen time after time. That me is the victim.

So which me do I like the best?

I guess I've learned to like them all. They all have their uses, their reasons for being. They all play their parts in my personality. They're all familiar to me, all well used and comfortable. I slip from one to another all day long, depending who I'm talking to at any given moment.

There are mes I once thought I could banish. That was way back in my teens when I was struggling to find me. My reasoning was that if I completely banished hate, bitterness, resentment, weakness—especially weakness—then I'd be a better person.

The truth is, I couldn't, nor should I even try, to banish any parts of my personality. I've learned who my different parts are, what they represent, when, how and why they surface. And, I've learned to respect them all. They've all played their parts in my survival over the difficult years of my childhood and teen years. They all keep me balanced as an adult.

It is true that there are some aspects of my personality that could do with a little improvement, but they're [hopefully] balanced by their opposites. Recognising the many mes was the first step to learning how to deal with them whenever they pop up.

Love and understanding binds all the different mes together now. I know me. I understand how I work, why I feel the way I do when certain things happen or are said. I recognise each me as it surfaces and I know how to deal with it.

I no longer feel ashamed and berate myself if the resentful or angry me makes an appearance. That's ok. They need to be heard occasionally. I give myself permission to feel. I don't give myself permission to be consumed by any one emotion, nor to be ruled by one. I understand myself better than anyone else, and I know I have the power to choose my own reactions.

Most of the time, I choose to walk in light and love. I choose to let peace and happiness into my heart. At no time do I block out all the negative emotions. They have their roles to play. I simply choose which path to walk.

Walk in love and light.

Cheers

Brittany K.